This is the third year I’m joining in with #Blogtober and I’m excited it’s back.
This time of year always has me feeling more productive and excited for the coming season, so Blogtober feels much more achievable than if it was any other month for me.
Last year I didn’t actually manage to do the whole month, which is a little embarrassing considering I did manage it the first year, and I had a baby during October that first year! I was actually really disappointed with myself last year, for not being able to do it all. But now as I look back on this last year I’m actually pretty pleased that I achieved any of it.
I can’t remember writing any of the posts. I can’t remember sitting down and starting a post. I can’t remember making the photo for every post. In fact there’s a lot of the last year and a half that I don’t remember. And every so often little flashbacks of things come back to me. Some are good, some are not so good.
Postnatal anxiety and depression affected me more than I ever knew. And it’s only now that I’m spending more time on the “good side” that I notice just how ill I was.
I’ve been medicated for almost a year now and for me they’ve been little miracles. I know medication won’t be for everyone but they’ve truly helped bring me back to being me. I don’t know if it’s something I’ll need forever or if they’ll just help me reset and I can ditch them. Either way I’m not too bothered. If I had something like diabetes or epilepsy then there would be no question of taking medication for the rest of my life.
Now of course, the last year has been about so much more than PND and PNA, but starting Blogtober again gave me a little time to reflect on this time last year.
Will I complete #Blogtober18 ? No idea! But if I don’t, it won’t be because I’m not well. And I’m excited to try!
Mrs H xxx