It’s October today. October!
At the risk of sounding like a huge cliche, where on earth did September go? Or the last year for that matter!
This time last year I joined in with my first Blogtober. And I’m pretty proud to say I completed it even though B was born during October. But I can’t say that I’ve kept up with blogging very well. In fact, lately I’ve been downright rubbish. I haven’t published anything in over two months. That’s not to say I haven’t written anything, or needed to write anything.
I just haven’t been brave enough to post anything. I can’t really say why. Nothing I’m writing is particularly groundbreaking or controversial, and I may never win any awards for writing but I don’t think my writing is TOO bad? But I can’t stop second guessing my self, my writing, my sharing and just if it’s any good at all.
Even this post is a struggle to write. I’m going over stuff, rewriting, rethinking each paragraph. I just can’t figure out why! There hasn’t been any negative comments. So why don’t I feel like any of it is good enough?
I suppose the last few months have been hard, mentally. I have a post in drafts which explains more about it (which I do plan on publishing!) so I won’t go into it now, but I think this could have had a knock on effect, making me doubt if I’m good enough to even blog.
I’m hoping this Blogtober will give me a new energy and confidence. I really got a lot out of joining in last year, but having a newborn it just wasn’t possible to keep up any sort of routine or frequency. Or any sort of actual thought process to be fair!!
At least this time it’s more likely that it’ll give me a nudge to start posting at least every week, if not more. And I’m going to try not to second guess everything too much, and get into the habit of just publishing again. I don’t exactly want to “just publish” any old crap, but I’m not sharing anything at all so I feel like coming up with something for each daily Blogtober prompt is going to help get back into it.
I’m going to use the daily titles as prompts, and that may include stories of general life and parenting, reviews of products I’ve received recently and maybe sometimes just little snapshots. I may just juggle the order a little too but I’ll see how well I can stick to it for now.
So, enough of my rambling! Let’s crack on with a fun and busy month!
Mrs H xxx